Ok technically, this was written last week in the spirit of transparency - but this could be many days - and the reality is on a day this is happening it’s not possible to make this thing post itself.
I slept through my alarm.
I woke up at 8 PM.
I was in so much pain I couldn't get out of bed.
Everything hurt.
It hurt to stand. It hurt to sit.
It hurt to breathe.
My eyelashes hurt.
Yeah, that’s right my eyelashes.
AND TODAY THIS IS WHAT I LOOK LIKE
I dragged myself out of bed temporarily and when I looked in the mirror
it pissed me off so much I took this selfie.
Because my skin was fucking glowing.
G l o w i n g .
Haven’t even washed my face yet.
I’m having the worst day and it thunks to itself “hurrah fucking vacation!”.
I would say "you go girl" but the only place it’s going is back to bed.
I'm thinking about this.
Because I'm thinking about every time someone has assumed
because of how I look that there isn't really anything wrong with me.
And I am.
So tired.
Of appearance being used as a shortcut for good and evil in fiction
and even in news story telling.
And for judgements.
Look, writers - filmmakers - fantasy makers - science-fiction showrunners - costume designers - makeup wizards - cgi experts
Could we all agree that just because someone looks terrible doesn't actually mean they're evil
And just because someone looks beautiful does not mean they're good?
Is this too much to ask?
Because I am SO TIRED of being judged on my fitness for life
and my capability based on my appearance and
you are not helping every time you make a wicked witch with a wart on her nose
Or an emperor with a chiwawa in his handbag whose looks are corrupted by a reverse queer eye to the dark side
Or demons who all look like they are decomposing (*note to audience i want a cookie it was really hard not to write republican senators here and i took the moral high road and i want you to know how virtuous and pretty i am) while the angels look beautiful
Can we all agree that humans are complicated and flawed?
And that even ethereal and occult beings could be complicated and flawed…..
And that a person’s looks are independent of their inner nature?
Like being glittery doesn’t mean you are extra good - it probably means your corporation needs queer offsets.
I mean from a true spiritual perspective, appearance belongs to the ego, can used for persuasion and temptation, and is a form of visual stimulus,
so aligning it with "good" seems morally dubious.
Just Like glitter …
Could we, stop teaching children to subconsciously assume
someone attractive is more worthy or capable?
Because as a chronically ill person who doesn’t always show my illness
This system is bullshit
and I don’t wanna have to WANT to look terrible
in order to prove to you I don’t feel good.
(But today I do. And how messed up is that?)